Quiet in my mind
Temporarily at rest
Peace is happiness
Quiet in my mind
Temporarily at rest
Peace is happiness
We go all day long, all week long, all year long. Is there anytime to just sit and do mindless and useless things? It took me a long time to realize that yes there is time to sit and do nothing or do exactly what you want. I feel like that is the only way I can regroup and get myself motivated again.
Guilt stricken is the best way I can describe how I used to feel about wanting to do this. I think it stems from my childhood. No, I know it stems from my childhood. My mom was OCD nonstop. She wasn’t clinically diagnosed as OCD but the signs were there. Back then, there was no special diagnosis for overly cleaning, obsessing, or being anal retentive about everything she did. God rest her soul. She was the epitome of having EVERYTHING in an orderly fashion. In turn, it rubbed off on me in different ways. I felt like I could never let the dust go, let the mail pile up, do the dishes on an as you use basis. It’s hard because of so many reasons. One because I used to care what people think. Specifically my ex-husband, relatives, friends who visited, and my kids.
In spite of letting things go, people will be people. Either they’ll judge you or they won’t. But in the scheme of things, either way it does not matter. Let them judge. Let them think however they are going to think. It’s okay to do what YOU want.
What matters most is how you feel. You have to be mindful of yourself. Screw everyone else around you. I know it isn’t easy. It took me probably 45 years to realize this. It’s hard enough to survive in this world so let the small things go and do you. Take care of you.

I just made THE BEST GLUTEN FREE PANCAKES EVER.
Shit you not. I am not going to make this long and drawn out. Below are the ingredients and instructions. Have at it and let me know how you like them!

INGREDIENTS
1 cup of Bob’s Red Mill 1 for 1 Gluten Free Flour
2 tablespoons of sugar
1/2 table spoon of baking powder
1 teaspoon of salt
2 tablespoons of unsalted melted butter
1 1/2 cups of any kind of milk(I used almond milk)that’s all I had(get it to a nice consistency. – pourable)
2 teaspoons of vanilla extract
1 egg
Calories: 207kcal Carbohydrates: 18g. Protein: 3g Fat: 4g Saturated Fat: 2g Cholesterol: 12mg Sodium: 131mg Potassium: 231mg Fiber: 2g Sugar: 5g Vitamin A: 125IU Calcium: 102mg Iron: 1mg
If something isn’t sitting right with your soul, change it. It could be anything from your shoes, hairstyle, flower arrangement, residence, partner, friends, anything. Change it. Why feel off or carry that feeling of being uncomfortable?
Take time and think about what is irking you. There is always a way out. Some changes might take longer than others as well as the effort you put into it, but it can be done.
Do you feel that little off kilter ping inside your gut? Is it throwing your whole vibe/mood off? Develop a plan or just eliminate what it is that is annoying you, or making you mad/sad.
Get rid of that stressed out feeling.
How? First question, what is it exactly that is making you feel blah. Why is it making you feel that way? Is it something that can be easily or hard to remove out of your life?
By all means, not everything is easy just to make it go “poof” disappear. You might be dealing with a sick or dying loved one. In that case, do what you can to make that person or yourself feel better. If you are under stress because of it, there is no way you can make that person feel better or realize that your loved one is in a better place. Life is supposed to be celebrated. It isn’t healthy to hold on to something that was inevitable.
Holding on to the past is a definite way to induce those blah feelings. What’s in the past is in the past. Leave it there. Live in the here and now. Past relationships should be looked as a lesson in life and nothing else. Thinking in your mind, what could have, should have is not leaving any room for what can be.
Don’t let another second go by without realizing that it’s not okay to be not okay.
~ Keep it simple and sweet ~