No, it’s not okay


It’s a Catch-22. Speaking your mind. For me it is anyway. I feel there are days when I am invincible and speak my mind about anything and everything. Then there are days that if I think if do I will lose everything.

Abuse is a cycle that can only be broken by the victim who is being abused. It comes in so many different ways. More than you could ever imagine. In some cases, if the abuser is losing control of his/her victim he will then resort to physical abuse.

They prey on the kind and weak to get what they want. Whether it’s control to satisfy their own ego, use of the victim to gain what they need, money to fill their own pockets, they will use their scare tactics to accomplish their own goals at the expense of others well-being.

I know because I am a survivor. Unfortunately though, I see the cycle of abuse being done to someone close to me. All I can do is hope and pray that I can use my strength to make them see right from wrong and what is being done to them is not natural or healthy.

Abuse is NOT okay and it comes in so many forms. When you are treated a certain way and it gives you feelings of being scared, uselessness, uncertainty, worthlessness, hopelessness, please walk away. Those are unhealthy feelings that will destroy your confidence and take away your strength.

Be strong and do whatever it takes to walk away.

This isn’t what I imagined


This isn’t what I imagined at this stage of my life. I’m not saying I’m unhappy with my current non-relationship status (which is single) but I guess growing up Catholic and being surrounded by friends who traditionally got married at a young age, like myself, that life was going to play out that you’d be married forever and grow old together no matter what and that was. it.

Well, it didn’t end up that way. It very well could but who knows. Right now it’s slim to none and slim just left the building lol.

Anyway, this is for all the single people out there who are feeling hopeless, frustrated, confused, and sometimes relieved. We are single. Trying to date. Dating going nowhere. Starting dating and it turned into a dead end. Then I think to myself, crap, would I really want to go back to the way it was? Hell no. Is there someone out there who I am compatible with? Who the freak knows.

It is what it is and in the mean time you have to do what makes you happy.

Sooooo lol I started camping with my sister and bro-in-law a few years ago. This year I decided to get my own site. I thought my kids were coming with me but they bailed. Yup. That’s a teenager for ya.

That’s okay though. I want to give it a go setting up my site by myself and see how it goes. My sister will only be one site over so if I do run into any issues I can give them a holler. If this works out like I am hoping it does, I’ll go solo next time.

We are heading to Bowman Lake again. Love it. Beautiful campsites. Not too crowded and not far from home. About an hour and a half.

Oh and I am brining Jet man.

A couple of points I am trying to make in post is that there is an ass for every seat. Don’t give up but don’t stop living your life in the process.

I set up the tent in my living room to give it a test run and it took me literally 3 minutes. It’s an Ozark Trail Instant Cabin 6 person tent. It says that it takes 60 seconds to set up but being I am brand spanking new at this it took me 3 minutes which isn’t terrible. Packing it up, not so much. Ha. Good thing I wasn’t having a cocktail or it probably would have been on fire.

Jet Man.

What a great read for the summer!! Trust me and get it!!


Love it!!!

Is it a sin to…


…have no motivation whatsoever? This isn’t about me committing sins either lol.

I’m feeling guilty because I have got next to nothing done today. In all fairness, I had a little incident at work the beginning of the week that put me out of commission for a few days. But, don’t we all once in a while? Is it the end of the world? No.

That’s neither here nor there because I can still function to a degree and I thank my lucky stars that it wasn’t worse.

I was off for 3 1/2 days. It set off total flashbacks for me. Covid quarantine flashbacks. Like most of you, I never ever want to experience that again.

That is the type of jolt we all need once in a while to make us appreciate life. It certainly gave me a wakeup call. That wakeup call is not letting events or people control my happiness.

Everyone gets into a funk periodically because of outside factors. I let this, whatever you call it umm stupid state of mind put me in a funk. I usually practice what I preach but for some reason this one was hard for me to shake off.

The time off gave me a chance to think about things though. Downtime to think is sooo important, but I will save that for another post.

There was a great article I read about not letting your emotions control you. It is like a built-in instinctual habit when a person lets their emotions control their cognitive thought process. It can ruin everything or it can make everything perfect. It all depends on you and your brain.

You’re bummed because you didn’t get the job, you didn’t pass the test, or someone hasn’t called or texted you back etc.

There are so many influences that affect our emotional state. The question is, how do we turn on and off those emotions? How can you reflect or intersect whatever is making your emotions go haywire?

It boils down to your brain. Conditioning your thoughts to recognize that emotions are feelings and feelings can be altered literally in a split second. The key is to learn how to change your reaction to the actions that are affecting your emotions.

It sounds a lot more than it really is. I’m not saying that it is easy to turn off your emotions but controlling them with your thoughts, can be done.

Over the years I have learned how to not let certain events or people control my emotional state. I am not perfect at it but I’ve come a long way.

Emotions, the bad ones, can wreak havoc on your health. Depression, anger, and sadness, especially for a long period of time can really do damage to your overall well-being. It is worth it? The sadness or anger you went through and probably eventually got over, was it worth your time slighting yourself of happiness? Not only your happiness but the happiness of those around you as well.

There isn’t anything in this world worth not having peace of mind. Life is always going to happen no matter what you say or do. It is inevitable.

The one thing you do have control over is your mind. Keep it strong. Practice deflection. Those small idiotic things that you encounter that get your pissed or make you sad, shrug it off and ask yourself, is it worth bringing me into a bad emotional state? When you realize that there are no major catastrophes in life, only then will you start to feel peace.

Your time on this earth is so precious. Don’t waste it. Be at peace with yourself and those around you.

Okay, enough gibberish. Have a great weekend everyone. Enjoy life!