I stepped out of the box and splurged on a new set of dishes from the Dollar Tree. The brand though is Royal Norfolk which I’m really surprised because I think that is a pretty good quality dish? Eh maybe I’m wrong and I want to believe I got a steal but whatever anyway. I love them and they are different then anything I would buy. Out with the old in with the new.

I seriously have no business being on here. I’m behind on my schoolwork and I skipped interning today. Arrghh my bad. It was just one of those days.

I went for my regular checkup and the good news was I am off my BP medicine for the time being well until he checks it next week to make sure my BP stays down and I lost 15 lbs since September. Wooo hooo! The bad news is I have two cyst on my wrist which is causing my arm to go numb and the other bad news is I don’t have health insurance to have them removed. Oh well. I don’t think I’m alone on that one.

Anyway that’s it for now. I have to get going on my chores blah.


And the hits keep coming…

and still all I can do is laugh! I’m sitting on the phone with the NYS Dept of Taxation and Finance. Hold time, 30 mins, shocking. They need additional information to process my return. Wth it is a simple form. Just another way to delay to giving me my refund. Word to the wise, I love NY don’t get me wrong but it’s crazy how expensive it is to live here and all the hoops you have to go through to survive in this state. They tax everything and I wouldn’t be surprised if they even taxed you when you sneezed.

They keep repeating to me how important my call is to them, well if it was why are you making me wait 30 mins to answer it? I don’t even want to think about how much this call is costing me. Does Verizon charge for landline calls? I really should have checked on that. Oh well.

I have so much to do and the last thing I want to be doing is waiting on the phone but hey it gives me time on here to putts around right.

I think I worked myself up so much lately that I am either have psoriasis or eczema on my hand from my nerves. Good job Jeana that is what you get for giving a hoot.

Only me.

Okay, update it has been 33:32 and they still haven’t picked up my important call. Unreal.

This is funny

When I first started this blog the purpose was to make it about new beginning, new house, starting over, and in one sense it is but the “new beginning” started off once again on a whole new track. Things played out a lot differently than what I expected and honestly I am not even sure where this is going to leave me. There are so many unknowns out there it’s not even funny. I feel like my life changes from one second to the next and I never ever know what tomorrow will bring. Talk about being the furthest thing from stability….??? Wth? Do I need that bucket with cement to keep me grounded? But if I did stick with one situation I would still be miserable to this day. Or if I sat around waiting for something or someone, that feeling left me empty. Empty isn’t good either.

I’m happy right now but scared. I feel like I didn’t buy that ticket yet for my final destination and it is making me uneasy. I think I should have some kind of plan set in place and don’t get me wrong, I’m in school full-time, I’m heading towards a goal, well sort of, I haven’t decided yet if that is truly what I want to end up doing. But that’s nor here nor there I’m use to not figuring it all out yet but is anyone?

To sum me up, I’m a 43-year-old mom, two awesome boys, in a so far great relationship with a guy who I think for the most part gets me. I am heading in a direction workwise that I think is what I ultimately want to be doing for the rest of my life. Those are all the good parts. My fears stem from I guess being at this age and stage in life and not having retirement(I did actually get the paperwork to open up a retirement account now I just have to follow through), not having health care, losing my house(to a fire)and having a jerk of an ex-husband that didn’t do his part and keep the insurance on it. Keeping my grades up in school, being the best mom I can be without sacrificing having a life of my own. Staying healthy and being true to myself.

I’m on a roll today. Why am I posting all this stuff about me well, I am real just like everyone else out there. I may not have figured out the direction I really want to be going in but at least I have some sort of a plan. I know for one thing and that is I am blessed with my kids being healthy and being able to stay at home with them during the summer and go to school full-time so I can finish my degree. I’m going to let it at that for now. I have a lot more I’d like to discuss but we have a dinner date at the Recovery Room to watch the CUSE game. So everyone enjoy the rest of your weekend. Thanks for listening.

Sitting waiting

I’m thinking this is going to work out pretty good. I think I got a job but I have to see how it plays out. We went to the casino last night and stayed over. We just had to get away and relieve some stress. We watched the Daytona Duel at one of the bars, had a few drinks and gambled for a few. I didn’t win tho as usual lol I need to get batteries for my good camera I’m missing out on some super good shots. Just felt like babbling. I hope you’re all having a good day and enjoy your weekend.