It’s a Catch-22. Speaking your mind. For me it is anyway. I feel there are days when I am invincible and speak my mind about anything and everything. Then there are days that if I think if do I will lose everything.
Abuse is a cycle that can only be broken by the victim who is being abused. It comes in so many different ways. More than you could ever imagine. In some cases, if the abuser is losing control of his/her victim he will then resort to physical abuse.
They prey on the kind and weak to get what they want. Whether it’s control to satisfy their own ego, use of the victim to gain what they need, money to fill their own pockets, they will use their scare tactics to accomplish their own goals at the expense of others well-being.
I know because I am a survivor. Unfortunately though, I see the cycle of abuse being done to someone close to me. All I can do is hope and pray that I can use my strength to make them see right from wrong and what is being done to them is not natural or healthy.
Abuse is NOT okay and it comes in so many forms. When you are treated a certain way and it gives you feelings of being scared, uselessness, uncertainty, worthlessness, hopelessness, please walk away. Those are unhealthy feelings that will destroy your confidence and take away your strength.
Yes, I’m scared. But, I look at it this way. My kids are 14 and 15 and are able to wipe their own buts and basically eat when they feel hungry lol, so I feel it’s time to do something for myself that is going to hmmm how do I put this…. make me feel whole. Huh? Don’t people usually look for a partner to make them feel “whole?” Lol true and having a companion does help in that department but this is different.
Before I go off on a tangent, my point to this post is my age, 48, I’m going back to school. I hate saying I all the time. I don’t want to make this about me. My posts are intended to talk to people out there who think they can’t in life. I know that there are millions of people out there who think it’s too late for them to do something like this. Then there are others that say bs I can. I’m standing in the middle but I just fell off the fence and I’m going for it. I am also doing it because this is exactly what my older sister did. At the age of I believe 52 she completed her Bachelors. Nothing and no one stopped her. She is a domestic violence advocate as well as a published author. At times she struggled mentally, financially, and yes physically(medical issues) but she did it and nothing stopped her.
Over the past 2 weeks I also decided that I am not going for my teaching certification. I am going for Masters in Social Work. MSW. That took a lot for me to say. Whew… so nervous but freakin excited. There are so many reasons why I switched to this but the main reason is I love helping people figure out life. Plain and simple.
There is so much more to this but I have to get going so I’m going to stop here for now. But ya’ll out there reading this, have an amazing day.
Remember there is nothing that you can’t do in life. Nothing. You are the only one stopping you from achieving your goals and following your dreams.
Yes, it’s scary and hard at times but you can do it.
Get out of your comfort zone and change your life. Start now.