Not so quick thought


I had so many things I wanted to blog about today but didn’t even get a chance to jot it down to do it after. “You never know,” is a quote someone put into my nieces program for the play along with their advertisement. But, it just stuck out in my head today for so many reasons. Last week we had a shooter right here in our village. Everything and everyone was turned upside down. There was one “you never know.” It’s scary but true because you truly never know one day from the next whats going to happen. You also never know who you are dealing with, neighbors, friends, even family to a certain extent. Lately, I have been finding out so many sides to so many people. Good and bad sides, trusting and not so trusting sides, along with I am totally shocked sides.

You never know isn’t a bad statement, it just means don’t assume you know everything about someone no matter how close of a friend you are. I see now why some people do the things they do and what makes them tick. I watch them get angry and act out and realize ohhh okay is that where all the emotion is stemming from. A lot of it comes from a person’s childhood. I truly believe that. Traumatic events and not so traumatic events that happened during someone’s youth can explain why they are they way they are today.

People display so many different type of emotions. I saw resentment, anger, disgust, guilt, all in one night!!! This was sitting on the other side of the fence and I thought to myself, I don’t want to be like that or end up like that. I don’t want to be in a hateful relationship. People can tell each other that they love one another all they want but it shows how they talk and treat to each other. If you can’t get past whatever resentment you have towards the other person then you need to let go or if your carrying some type of hate as a result of what happened to you in the past, stop. Stop taking it out on people who love you the most. It sucks. I see myself doing a little bit of both. I make excuses for the things I do and what I’ve had done to me in the past. It isn’t right and I know this. Making excuses isn’t any way to live life. Change has to happen now before it’s too late.