Manifest your destiny


How can I put this… I am normal as they come so listen to this. When you hear about manifesting your destiny I know that there are people out there who think its a bunch of malarkey right?

People say if you think positive and put out in the universe what you want you will get it. I’ve read the book The Secret quite a long time ago and I try to pick it up now and then just to skim through some of the chapters to refresh my memory and give it a positive boost. And let me tell you, being a pretty normal gal from Long Island with two boys ages 11 and 12, who loves to ride Harley’s with her boyfriend, the improbably is possible. Trust me on this.

I was raised as a Catholic pasta eating person. I like to socialize and have a few on the weekends. I am not perfect nor do I ever pretend to be. I watch Criminal Minds, Bates Motel, The Walking Dead, binge eat at night sometimes, curse like a sailor when need be. I’m telling you this just to give you a clue of what I’m like so when I tell you this about manifesting your destiny, you can actually see the type of person I am and am not. If you catch my drift?

I believe that if you think about something enough or put positive thoughts in your mind, they will come true.

I’ve seen it a few times now in my life and I sit and think about how certain events have developed over a period of time. As of just recently like in the past 2 months, I went for a job interview for a job that was my dream job. It was for a Community Educator position with the YWCA. It is ideal for me because it is a job that I really can’t call it a job because it’s truly something I love doing. So low and behold I was called in for not one but two interviews.

I finally got the call from the HR woman to tell me that I DIDN’T get the job. Hmmm…. I wasn’t worried or upset. I knew that the position was still mine even though they hired someone else.

It was really weird because my sister and I talked about it and even she said, “Jeana, I feel like that position is yours and some how or some way you are going to get it in the long run.”

What do you think happened??  Two months later, they let the first candidate go and asked me if I was still interested in the position!

I’m not going to say, “oh how can this be?” You know why? Because I already now how it could be, I wished it to be mine and I put it out in the universe that the position was meant for me. Looked what happen. I’m going in this coming Monday to discuss the particulars. But who knows I might have not gotten this position in the end and if not, it wasn’t meant to be. Remember, what’s destined to be will be.

People are probably saying, well how come you don’t wish yourself to win the lotto right? Well its kind of hard to explain but if you know in your heart what your intentions are realistically suppose to be, then that is how your destiny is truly meant to end up like. In the long run it is kinda like you won the lotto when you end up in a happy place.

That’s how I look at it anyway lol.

Good luck. Think positive. Manifest your thoughts and destiny. It will happen just stay focused and don’t lose hope. I promise it does work.

Snowy thoughts


Just summing up from yesterday, even though we did not have the boys or Alisha(and we were bumming from time to time about that) our day turned out pretty good. We had awesome food with some beautiful people. No stress, no fuss and that is exactly how it should be. I hope everyone else had a great day as well.
I am going to ramble on again so here it goes. You have to stop and think about what is your life all about? What’s happening that is good and bad? And, which parts of those occurrences are self-induced? I can’t say I had this epiphany just recently or not even in the past 10 years but my personal revelation of being happy with what I have has always been my number one priority. I feel that what God has given me now is a blessing and that primarily being in my book, is life. Anything else is icing on the cake. I listen to the people around me talk and I can see sadness and anguish on their faces. Think about what is causing that and what is the best solution to eliminate it. Life isn’t always going to go according as planned but working with what you have and making the best out if it is sometimes the answer to your problems.
The worst possible thing that could happen to me is my mom passing a couple of years ago. I still grieve over it but it is one of those things that was totally out of my control and inevitable. Some things in life like death you cannot change so the best thing to do is just roll with those feelings and eventually the pain will ease up some and you move on. I hate to be so cut and dry about it but it’s the truth, sad and painful at times, but true.
Where am I going with all this???? Oh okay yup I remember….in the end all the roller coaster of emotions and life’s ups and downs will eventually pay off. Whatever is going to be will be and if it isn’t what truly makes you happy then change it. Don’t take this life for granted. I know I won’t. Not now, not ever, and not for anyone. I have gold in my hands and even though it isn’t perfect I wouldn’t trade my life for anything in this world. I am so blessed.
Once again a new year is upon us. Start over and consciously make that effort to change what is wrong. I still have a lot of changes to make to get to where I want to be but it’s a process as life always is. Some changes are by all means not easy to make, like the ones I have ahead of me, but as time passes you will realize by making those changes you did the right thing to get to where you have to be and that is happy, and happy doesn’t cost a thing!!
Have a great day everyone. I’m sure I’ll be making another longwinded post again before Christmas. If my posts helps anyone out there who might need reassurance that everything will work out in the end, then I’m okay with that and if there are those of you that think I’m just plain nuts, then so be it! Lol!
“Life is good. Work hard, be humble, and most of all be kind to one another.” Oh and remember, “happy doesn’t cost a thing.” Love that saying!

Don’t Give Up


I guess I already know the answer to my own question which is: why am I hesitant to blog, brag, or be happy about the relationship I’m in? Okay, so the answer to that is…because I don’t want to jinx myself and ruin a good thing. I’m so petrified of losing this or whatever that it is that I have going on with this great man I met and I’m acting like it’s no big deal when in actuality this life changing relationship for me is a huge deal.

I am so happy but yet scared and in denial at the same time. I lost my mom two years ago to the date on this coming August 19th and she was my best friend. I lost my house to a fire on Christmas Eve 4 months after I lost her and then my dog died 3 months after the fire. I’m not saying any of this to get sympathy because I am somewhat okay with all of that and came to terms with the fact that it’s all a part of life and they cycle that brings us to the place where we are meant to be.

I am blogging about it because I believe those things is what are holding me back from really enjoying what I have accomplished from that time in my life on until now.

Since then I have changed my life drastically. I knew if I didn’t I would have been dead, literally. I was spiraling down and fast prepping myself for a fatal crash landing.

My kids are what saved me. There was no way that I was going to have anyone raise them besides myself. Even though I don’t feel like I am going to be able to make a difference in this world, like Mother Theresa, but I feel like that my boys are going to be something big one day. So hard to explain but I’m on a roll so bear with my tangent that I’m gong off on!!

Back to my original reason why I am blogging today is because for the first time in a really long while, I am truly happy. I love the man I am going to spend the rest of my days with. He is my true best friend and soul mate. The one I have been looking for but never though it would be possible to find someone like him.

I’m not saying that our relationship is 100% perfect. No one has that. But he has the qualities that I have been looking for. I guess what I’m also trying to say is DON’T GIVE UP. Whoever you are reading this and if you are unhappy with your life in any area, it will get better. I promise. I never thought it was possible for me.

I truly believe the key to turning things around is positive thinking. You cannot buy a quick fix program to help you get your life back on track. It all comes from within. Think about what you want in life. Write it down and even cut pictures from a magazine or book of what you envision your life to be like and those dreams will come true. I did just that and it happened I swear. Oh the only book that I did read was, “The Secret.” I forgot the authors who put it together but it helped me in leaps and bounds. I still refer back to it from time to time when I feel like I need a little boost.

I’m not sure who and if anyone is actually going to take the time to read this post but if you do and you need someone to talk to, I’m here. I’m not judgmental or make the conversation about me. I am here to just to listen and offer some words of comfort if you need them.

Yea, I might just be a girl from Long Island, New York but I have been through a lot in my life that I believe gives me the credentials to help others. They say life experience is the best and I most certainly have to agree with that saying.

V DAY


Happy Valentine’s Day. I know, I know to some it is just another day but for others it can mean that it is a day that kind sums up part if your life in a nutshell.
My life in a nutshell has been a crazy one. The shell that I’ve been living in has been tossed around, kicked, and thrown against a wall.
Today is the first time that I feel like V Day really has meaning for me.
I love Carrie from Sex in the City so I’m going to refer to my guy as Mr. Big lol. Lame yes I know. It’s been 4 1/2 months since we started seeing each other. We hit a few road bumps along the way but we got over them. Hey our relationship isn’t perfect but the main factor in this for me is that I’m so happy. He treats me like gold without hesitation. Is this what it feels like to be put on a pedestal? I can’t describe it or how much I appreciate my life and what god had given me. Out if everything bad comes something good. I truly believe. My mom always told me to think that way and she was right. Positive thoughts bring positive results.
Have a great day everyone xoxo