happiness

Winter, a time to rejuvenate and watch Netflix.

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Well I can’t say that I’m surprised or shocked that I am once again sick during the holiday season. It only hits me once a year and that once a year time being now. It never fails but then again I feel like there is no better time than now to rest my mind and body, rejuvenate myself as a whole, and even reflect a little bit.

I get in this mood to post a blog and then all of a sudden it fades. I wish I could be consistent with blogging. Is time a factor, mood, or what? I guess a combination of things.

Today’s post is just a hodge podge of thoughts and comments today. I’ve been on a Netflix binge while being sick and here are just a few movies that I highly recommend. Neerja (true story), Colonia Dignidad (true events), and The Siege of Jadotville. All three were excellent. Scary but true. Makes you think about life a little deeper. Yes they all took place at during a different time period than now but things like this still take place in today’s day and age. Crazy.

Yup that’s me walking Mugs. Someone has to right? Sick and all a mom’s work is never done. mugs

I didn’t get the job

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But you know what, I’m not upset like I was the first time I interviewed for it. It just wasn’t meant to be. It’s that plain and simple.

I have to move my mom and dad up from Florida in a couple of months and there is no way I would have gotten my vacation time before then.

I was offered a temporary subbing job the last two months in my son’s school. Which will be his last two months of 6th grade! How can I pass up that once in a lifetime opportunity? I get to go to school with my son for his last two months of elementary school.

This is life and sometimes you just have to roll with it. There is nothing you can do to change it and what is meant to be will truly be.

I love my life. I have no major complaints. What more could I ask for.

 

You’re motoring

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Okay so we didn’t go to Motor’s for breakfast because we were running out of time and had a lot to do but we did make it to Arthur’s for lunch! I had the chicken pesto wrap and Mike had the turkey club. So freakin delicious.

Why in the world didn’t I take any pics? Ugh. It’s probably because I’m so hungry and eat so fast then forget lol. But I did get a pic of the snow blowing up on Bartow Hill. Wow! The wind was a howling.

Any how we are taking a road trip to Glassboro NJ but we are going to pass through Philadelphia woot woot and I told him we have to stop and get some Philly cheese steak sammys somewhere. Sooo I’ll make sure I get some pics then.

Well for now I have to hit the hay. Tomorrow is my day to shadow the Community Educator who will hopefully  be hiring me for the Herkimer position.

Monday is my final interview. Da, da, da, daaaaa……..keeping fingers crossed!

 

 

Happiness is achievable

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It’s about 8:00 and the house is super quiet. Boys are sleeping. Rain is falling, yes rain. Should be snow here in NY this time of year but eh rain always has a soothing way about it now matter how messy it makes the left over snow look.

Anyway this is the best time of the day when I can think. When I think I start typing away so here I go.

It’s two days away from my birthday and I feel the more I grow closer to my mid 40’s the clearer things become. Life is truly black and white. It’s either you live it and you live it happily or you don’t.

Why would you stop pursuing your happiness? The sky is limitless. Yes there are barriers to happiness such as yourself, other people, and circumstances but look at it this way, the only thing that can truly prevent yourself from being happy is death lol.

Remember this is the normal girl from Long Island talking(who now resides in upstate NY) again and who has been through A LOT and when I say A LOT of different barriers but nothing has stopped me from getting to where I needed to be at that very point in my life. Like right now. I’m resting finally. Hmmm or how else can I describe it..? I feel calm and peace in my life right now. But wait my life is not perfect omg not even close. I’m going to go into a little bit of detail just so you guys can relate to what is going on in my life and how I DO NOT let that have an impact on my happiness. Got that?

For starters, money is tight. When I mean tight I mean tight like 3 pounds of sausage in a two lb. bag tight lol.  My child support hasn’t come in in 3 weeks, I’m on the verge of a nervous breakdown interviewing and doing presentations for a job that I so desperately need and want. I’m having major issues with my 12-year-old son regarding just about everything and everything. And re-occurring trust issues with my boyfriend(partly because of my views on our relationship and how I handle things). Too much to explain. These issues are just the gist of it.

My point is that I am happy even with all of that going on. Do you know why?? Because I put everything in perspective. Money issues will always be there and if I don’t think positive those money issues will never get resolved. The CS will come in when it comes in. I am a little ahead on paying my bills so I have to look at that as a plus. If I continue to think positive about this job I am going to get, it will happen.

The issues with my son, aren’t really issues. It’s life and so be it. Things could be a lot worse and I am blessed that this is the extent of my issues with him.

The trust and control issues with my boyfriend is a whole other ball game. For the most part we get along great but in order to get back to where we were about five months ago, we need to work on our communication.

All this can be fixed. None of it is life threatening. If I continue to stress, it will be life threatening.

There is always a way. I’m reverting back to my earlier posts about positive thinking. It isn’t easy as I make it sound. It took me years and years to finally get this cycle working the right way.

The way I got to this point of realizing what is important to worry about and what isn’t, was by reading and googling everything about positive thinking and eliminate stress. Everyone does it in their own special way so sometimes you have to take bits and pieces of things that will work for you.

Trust me on this. Happiness is achievable. I promise. coffee