Reflections

Observations, questions, and moments of clarity shaped by experience thoughts that come from slowing down and paying attention.

Winter, a time to rejuvenate and watch Netflix.

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Well I can’t say that I’m surprised or shocked that I am once again sick during the holiday season. It only hits me once a year and that once a year time being now. It never fails but then again I feel like there is no better time than now to rest my mind and body, rejuvenate myself as a whole, and even reflect a little bit.

I get in this mood to post a blog and then all of a sudden it fades. I wish I could be consistent with blogging. Is time a factor, mood, or what? I guess a combination of things.

Today’s post is just a hodge podge of thoughts and comments today. I’ve been on a Netflix binge while being sick and here are just a few movies that I highly recommend. Neerja (true story), Colonia Dignidad (true events), and The Siege of Jadotville. All three were excellent. Scary but true. Makes you think about life a little deeper. Yes they all took place at during a different time period than now but things like this still take place in today’s day and age. Crazy.

Yup that’s me walking Mugs. Someone has to right? Sick and all a mom’s work is never done. mugs

Happiness is achievable

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It’s about 8:00 and the house is super quiet. Boys are sleeping. Rain is falling, yes rain. Should be snow here in NY this time of year but eh rain always has a soothing way about it now matter how messy it makes the left over snow look.

Anyway this is the best time of the day when I can think. When I think I start typing away so here I go.

It’s two days away from my birthday and I feel the more I grow closer to my mid 40’s the clearer things become. Life is truly black and white. It’s either you live it and you live it happily or you don’t.

Why would you stop pursuing your happiness? The sky is limitless. Yes there are barriers to happiness such as yourself, other people, and circumstances but look at it this way, the only thing that can truly prevent yourself from being happy is death lol.

Remember this is the normal girl from Long Island talking(who now resides in upstate NY) again and who has been through A LOT and when I say A LOT of different barriers but nothing has stopped me from getting to where I needed to be at that very point in my life. Like right now. I’m resting finally. Hmmm or how else can I describe it..? I feel calm and peace in my life right now. But wait my life is not perfect omg not even close. I’m going to go into a little bit of detail just so you guys can relate to what is going on in my life and how I DO NOT let that have an impact on my happiness. Got that?

For starters, money is tight. When I mean tight I mean tight like 3 pounds of sausage in a two lb. bag tight lol.  My child support hasn’t come in in 3 weeks, I’m on the verge of a nervous breakdown interviewing and doing presentations for a job that I so desperately need and want. I’m having major issues with my 12-year-old son regarding just about everything and everything. And re-occurring trust issues with my boyfriend(partly because of my views on our relationship and how I handle things). Too much to explain. These issues are just the gist of it.

My point is that I am happy even with all of that going on. Do you know why?? Because I put everything in perspective. Money issues will always be there and if I don’t think positive those money issues will never get resolved. The CS will come in when it comes in. I am a little ahead on paying my bills so I have to look at that as a plus. If I continue to think positive about this job I am going to get, it will happen.

The issues with my son, aren’t really issues. It’s life and so be it. Things could be a lot worse and I am blessed that this is the extent of my issues with him.

The trust and control issues with my boyfriend is a whole other ball game. For the most part we get along great but in order to get back to where we were about five months ago, we need to work on our communication.

All this can be fixed. None of it is life threatening. If I continue to stress, it will be life threatening.

There is always a way. I’m reverting back to my earlier posts about positive thinking. It isn’t easy as I make it sound. It took me years and years to finally get this cycle working the right way.

The way I got to this point of realizing what is important to worry about and what isn’t, was by reading and googling everything about positive thinking and eliminate stress. Everyone does it in their own special way so sometimes you have to take bits and pieces of things that will work for you.

Trust me on this. Happiness is achievable. I promise. coffee

 

 

Up early today

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I’m trying to decide on how my day is going to go. We got the call last night from the school that it will be closed today due to weather so I have my cherubs home again today. Mike and I will have to make rounds and plow people out and then later on finish the boys bedroom. Can’t wait for it to be all done! I’ll take some pics and post when it is complete.

This weekend we took them sledding for a while. The snow and views here in upstate NY are absolutely gorgeous.

There is another 14 inches expected today. I live for this stuff!

Nothing better than being able to have the ability to stay home with my kids, work with my boyfriend, and cherish the time that is granted to me to stay with them. I couldn’t ask for more.

Here are the pics from this weekend.

I’m going to attempt a cinnamon swirl bread I found on pinterest. I’ll be posting that later on. snow2 (2)Snow2015

Snowy thoughts

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Just summing up from yesterday, even though we did not have the boys or Alisha(and we were bumming from time to time about that) our day turned out pretty good. We had awesome food with some beautiful people. No stress, no fuss and that is exactly how it should be. I hope everyone else had a great day as well.
I am going to ramble on again so here it goes. You have to stop and think about what is your life all about? What’s happening that is good and bad? And, which parts of those occurrences are self-induced? I can’t say I had this epiphany just recently or not even in the past 10 years but my personal revelation of being happy with what I have has always been my number one priority. I feel that what God has given me now is a blessing and that primarily being in my book, is life. Anything else is icing on the cake. I listen to the people around me talk and I can see sadness and anguish on their faces. Think about what is causing that and what is the best solution to eliminate it. Life isn’t always going to go according as planned but working with what you have and making the best out if it is sometimes the answer to your problems.
The worst possible thing that could happen to me is my mom passing a couple of years ago. I still grieve over it but it is one of those things that was totally out of my control and inevitable. Some things in life like death you cannot change so the best thing to do is just roll with those feelings and eventually the pain will ease up some and you move on. I hate to be so cut and dry about it but it’s the truth, sad and painful at times, but true.
Where am I going with all this???? Oh okay yup I remember….in the end all the roller coaster of emotions and life’s ups and downs will eventually pay off. Whatever is going to be will be and if it isn’t what truly makes you happy then change it. Don’t take this life for granted. I know I won’t. Not now, not ever, and not for anyone. I have gold in my hands and even though it isn’t perfect I wouldn’t trade my life for anything in this world. I am so blessed.
Once again a new year is upon us. Start over and consciously make that effort to change what is wrong. I still have a lot of changes to make to get to where I want to be but it’s a process as life always is. Some changes are by all means not easy to make, like the ones I have ahead of me, but as time passes you will realize by making those changes you did the right thing to get to where you have to be and that is happy, and happy doesn’t cost a thing!!
Have a great day everyone. I’m sure I’ll be making another longwinded post again before Christmas. If my posts helps anyone out there who might need reassurance that everything will work out in the end, then I’m okay with that and if there are those of you that think I’m just plain nuts, then so be it! Lol!
“Life is good. Work hard, be humble, and most of all be kind to one another.” Oh and remember, “happy doesn’t cost a thing.” Love that saying!