Have you ever felt like your feet were stuck in mud? Metaphorically speaking obviously.
You are in limbo. You don’t know whether you are coming or going.
You are just sitting and waiting. Waiting and waiting.
My life has been on hold for 5 years. No actually since my divorce in 2006. Maybe even before that but I have such a bad memory I can’t remeber beyond 1993.
I felt like I was living in a pinball machine and I was the ball getting knocked from side to side just waiting to fall through the hole and be done with the game.
It’s been a rough ride down. It hurt going from one side to the other side and being smash by the metal prongs.
I just wanted to fall through the hole and lay my head down and rest.
I am almost to the bottom but my body is sore. My brain is over being jolted. There are too many thoughts being thrown around. I’m over it.
I’m tired.
But, it’s almost over.
You have to believe and never give up.