I live in upstate NY and you all probably know what that’s like. On average, we get about 8 months of cold/rainy/snowy weather and 4 months of rockstar weather. I love the change of seasons. Like everything else in life, even the sunshine could get exhausting also. I need to see those leaves changing to the fiery reds, burnt oranges, golden yellows, and deep purples. There’s also a different smell in the air. The smell of camp fires magically appear out of nowhere. Even the sounds are different. When the wind blows, you can hear the rustle of the leaves blowing across the ground. At the end of summer, my mom always said, “the trees, grass, and bugs are tired, and they need to rest too.” At first, I didn’t understand what she truly meant but I see it now. The once bright fresh greens that the leaves used to be now appear subdued and look like a deep olive color.
Change is good. I welcome change and I don’t mind whatever mother nature brings my way. I really love all types of weather in upstate NY.
We go all day long, all week long, all year long. Is there anytime to just sit and do mindless and useless things? It took me a long time to realize that yes there is time to sit and do nothing or do exactly what you want. I feel like that is the only way I can regroup and get myself motivated again.
Guilt stricken is the best way I can describe how I used to feel about wanting to do this. I think it stems from my childhood. No, I know it stems from my childhood. My mom was OCD nonstop. She wasn’t clinically diagnosed as OCD but the signs were there. Back then, there was no special diagnosis for overly cleaning, obsessing, or being anal retentive about everything she did. God rest her soul. She was the epitome of having EVERYTHING in an orderly fashion. In turn, it rubbed off on me in different ways. I felt like I could never let the dust go, let the mail pile up, do the dishes on an as you use basis. It’s hard because of so many reasons. One because I used to care what people think. Specifically my ex-husband, relatives, friends who visited, and my kids.
In spite of letting things go, people will be people. Either they’ll judge you or they won’t. But in the scheme of things, either way it does not matter. Let them judge. Let them think however they are going to think. It’s okay to do what YOU want.
What matters most is how you feel. You have to be mindful of yourself. Screw everyone else around you. I know it isn’t easy. It took me probably 45 years to realize this. It’s hard enough to survive in this world so let the small things go and do you. Take care of you.
This isn’t what I imagined at this stage of my life. I’m not saying I’m unhappy with my current non-relationship status (which is single) but I guess growing up Catholic and being surrounded by friends who traditionally got married at a young age, like myself, that life was going to play out that you’d be married forever and grow old together no matter what and that was. it.
Well, it didn’t end up that way. It very well could but who knows. Right now it’s slim to none and slim just left the building lol.
Anyway, this is for all the single people out there who are feeling hopeless, frustrated, confused, and sometimes relieved. We are single. Trying to date. Dating going nowhere. Starting dating and it turned into a dead end. Then I think to myself, crap, would I really want to go back to the way it was? Hell no. Is there someone out there who I am compatible with? Who the freak knows.
It is what it is and in the mean time you have to do what makes you happy.
Sooooo lol I started camping with my sister and bro-in-law a few years ago. This year I decided to get my own site. I thought my kids were coming with me but they bailed. Yup. That’s a teenager for ya.
That’s okay though. I want to give it a go setting up my site by myself and see how it goes. My sister will only be one site over so if I do run into any issues I can give them a holler. If this works out like I am hoping it does, I’ll go solo next time.
We are heading to Bowman Lake again. Love it. Beautiful campsites. Not too crowded and not far from home. About an hour and a half.
Oh and I am brining Jet man.
A couple of points I am trying to make in post is that there is an ass for every seat. Don’t give up but don’t stop living your life in the process.
I set up the tent in my living room to give it a test run and it took me literally 3 minutes. It’s an Ozark Trail Instant Cabin 6 person tent. It says that it takes 60 seconds to set up but being I am brand spanking new at this it took me 3 minutes which isn’t terrible. Packing it up, not so much. Ha. Good thing I wasn’t having a cocktail or it probably would have been on fire.
Don’t over analyze anything. It will destroy you. You have to just take life as it comes and as hard or easy as that may be, just let it happen.
If you think positive, I can assure you positive things will come. Manifesting what you want is not bs. The key is you truly have to put your heart and soul into what you want. There is no pretending either. You have to give it your all.
Simple Sweet Living 